Hobbit Long-Weekend

Caring for mind, body, soul, and community

I’m in my hobbit era.

But what does that mean?

For me, it means slowing down and taking some of the societal pressure off myself. It’s not about ignoring the horrors of the world, but creating a soft balance to help me get through it. The last few years have made me face my capacity in big ways, and as I gain new symptoms, like chronic pain, I’m no longer able to ignore the need to change my pace.

I’m a single parent.

I have CPTSD and related symptoms.

I work not just full-time now, but overtime.

I’m tired.

I’m no longer able to push beyond my means, because pushing now means physical pain, increased insomnia, and decreased capacity to do what I need to do. There’s a lot I am responsible for, which means I need to ensure I can fulfill my responsibilities in real and sustainable ways. I don’t want to burn out again.

I can’t.

I’ve moved through some resentment about my change in energy and ability, which was already on the decline. I’ve moved through some shame. I’ve cried. A lot. While I’m su…